It's been a minute, hey guys.
Writing gets my ideas out, my thoughts cemented and stoned.
But my god will some mistakes linger with you till you confront the core cause of the friction.
It's been about three or four Octobers now where my plans have been somewhat demolished and settled to yet another passed month of working and lukewarm music missions.
Don't get me wrong I love this month and all the events that are coming from it, I just sometimes feel the failures creep up on me and make me feel like my attempts to create my projects from Point A from the previous year always fall flat.
Idk I'd like to think I'm getting better at this industry and the people around me are trusting my talent and work ethic more, but at times I still feel like that little boy inside of me back in 5th grade that used to get relentlessly bullied, is telling me that your talent is only skin deep.
It is my responsibility to pick me up from the deep gallows at the end of the day but at this point I'm starting to think twice about always being so strong.
I truly love the challenge, and the constant problem solving, its what keeps me on my toes and not comfortable, which is has kept me growing to this point,
but I do despise making the same failures when I know the root of the bigger issue.
Halloween is special and my love for it is special.
One day I'll look back and understand why I was put to this task but it does hurt.
Patience is key but a routinely fuck up, sucks.
I want my music video, I want my album, I want my health.
Little me back in elementary school I know is proud though, a way different spot than I thought i would be in, but its the appropriate spot.
I'm positive
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